It’s been such a long time since I’ve written. But that doesn’t mean I haven’t been thinking about ways of using my blog to help others. The last couple of months of my pregnancy had made it difficult for me to find time to sit down and write…or do much of anything to be quite honest. (Just as the first trimester did, the third trimester wiped me out!) Then I had my beautiful baby boy…so there was absolutely no free time, as I wanted to bond with this amazing bundle of joy.
Now that I am back to work and getting into more of a normal routine, I want to put pen to paper and continue what I set out to do. In fact, I had what was undoubtedly a big sign, that my journey of helping others was not yet over.
I had taken 3 months of maternity leave upon having Baby Brandon. Since I was returning to work the following week, my husband and I wanted to go out to lunch with our son for a “last horrah” before I had to be away from Brandon for most of the day. If you’re a parent or a pet owner, you know how difficult it is to be away from your loved one for so long. I commute to work between 3-4 hours a day roundtrip (due to LA traffic) so I would be gone from 7am to 7:30pm. 😦
While I was waiting inside the restaurant to be seated, I noticed a young lady who walked in to give her name to the hostess. There was nothing about her that set her apart from the others in the crowd, but I could read it in her face. There was some sort of aura that connected with me and seemed familiar. But she didn’t look familiar so I dismissed it because I thought maybe I was crazy with all these pregnancy-related emotions.
Well the wait at this restaurant was too long so we decided to try a different place. My husband went to the car to get the stroller and I waited outside briefly.
You know when you’re in a public place and you’re so close to the person next to you that you can’t avoid overhearing what they are talking about? I was trying not to eavesdrop in on the conversation going on next to me but I could hear everything whether I wanted to or not.
Two female voices were speaking and one of the girls was telling the other about how difficult it was to wake up every morning…to want to do anything…how hard it was to even roll out of bed and be there, at a restaurant that day…that she was still depressed and not ok. She was stuck feeling this lethargic feeling and she couldn’t pull herself out of it…that nothing anyone did could help her…
As my husband brought the stroller and we loaded up Brandon, I looked up at the girls and realized that it was the familiarly unfamiliar young lady who was having this conversation. I had chills…it was a sign…definitely not coincidence. I was meant to hear that conversation.
I wanted to talk to her and tell her I knew her pain and I had been there…I wanted to hear her story and see if there was something she wanted to ask to someone who had been through some “wreckage” and now led a complete 180 lifestyle…a life in which happily ever after did exist. I wanted to tell her it would be ok, that it was temporary and that she was stronger than she thought…that her journey had just begun. But I didn’t want to be that creepy person. It was not my place to chime in.
And so my journey continues…I have a lot going on in my life. But so do millions of others. That incident was a moment of clarity for me. It revitalized my drive to continue my blog in pursuit of helping others find their happily ever after. It’s not enough for me to be happy. I want this for everyone because if they felt as empowered, whole, and truly happy as I do, I believe the world would be a better place. My mission has a purpose and if sharing my experiences and thoughts might help at least one individual who has lost their way, then I know I have put my best out there.
I want to be able to answer any questions or give insight to those who truly are struggling. So tell me…what’s on your mind? How can I help YOU? Questions? Concerns? Please comment here or email me directly at nvokechangenow (at) gmail (dot) com.